I have tons of staff I want to write about and express myself, but somehow I think only in English at least for now.
I just struggle everyday with my life thinking where to go, how to live and what to be, still now, right before my **th birthday. I guess people, who are like my age, should already know their way to go and might have settled down, but about me, I feel I’m in the middle of everything, like being a wife, mother, woman, education, career etc. I feel I haven’t accomplished anything; actually it’s not true, thank goodness. If so, what is this feeling? I’m at nowhere, no signals, no signs, no nothing.
I guess I just need to deal with this feeling more seriously. I guess I have been ignoring this kind of feeling for a long time. I have known I need to face it but I kept walking around it. Maybe this is not a right statement. I did deal with many little things everyday by making decisions but now I’ve got to commit something bigger. Must be this is the time. Time to think out of the box.